Brokenhearted, totally despair

It's ten minutes past three, but I'm still up. 

Seeing the door opened, with a lovely bed inside, 

my legs become heavier and heavier,

till I couldn't even make a step into the room.

I want, but I couldn't even close my eyes and sleep.  

Because I'm still A.W.A.K.E, 

totally A.W.A.K.E now. 

WHY???

B.

E.

C.

A.

U.

S.

E.

I'm pondering of what you're thinking now.

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Ctrl+Alt+Delete 

why aren't you working??? 

 

Sometimes, 

we wish we could wipe off everything from our minds,

because we do not want to think about it anymore. 

Time passes, 

people changes~ 

We always hope that the one that we know previously 

will come back, 

back to the one that we're familiar with. 

You...

Sometimes,  

you're near to us, 

and yet far from us. 

Sometimes, 

we're always there, just beside you,  

but you didn't realize our presence. 

You pointed at us and said we've changed.

You're upset, you're pissed off.

B.

U.

T.

Do you realize that you are actually selfish,

selfish in the term that 

you only care about your own feeling,

listen to others only

and put all the blame on us?

  I'm sure that you couldn't feel 

other people's bleeding hearts and crying of despair 

at the same time, because 

you can only think of how sad you are!

Their hearts are actually bleeding everyday,

ever since you see them as transparent,

far before the day you're down. 

It's time to reflect... 

You're mature enough to think of

what is actually important in your life.

You've missed a lot already!

 

You listen to

the people beside you,

backstabbing us,

sowing dissension, so-called 挑拨离间 

among us.

Perhaps, now you'll think that 

they are good,

they are everything to you. 

On the other hand,

we are bad, 

we are nothing to you. 

B.

U.

 T. 

I can tell you, 

no matter you believe or not, 

 I've never back-stabbed you before!

Because I H.A.T.E. backstabbers!!!

 

It's normal to be blindfolded at certain time.

Sometimes you treat people nicely

but they take you for granted.

Sometimes you do not have any bad intention,  

but they THINK TOO MUCH!!!  

It's time to stop, 

backstabber(s)...  

I don't know, 

and 

I don't want to know 

your real intentions. 

 H.

O.

W.

E.

V.

E.

R.

 

It's really annoying

when you made the situation worse,

when you talk nonsense,

when you know nothing, and

when you're not 'in' the situation.   

 Sometimes, 

you will really get disappointed 

when your friend welcomed a backstabber 

with his/her open arms 

and kicked you far from him/her

because he/she thinks that you are nothing to him/her.

Alright!  

I'm telling myself that I won't care about it anymore.

Without you, I'm still Doreen!

 A strong friendship actually will not cease because of backstabbers! 

 The problems will not be solved until the day comes...

Mentally tired already, dismiss here~

Goodnight, world~

 

 

Christmas season + yesterday

Take a deep breath and start reading yea~ 

I guess everyone can smell the wholesome air of Christmas already, right?  

Same to me, hanging around 1Borneo Hypermall and KK area, I can see assorted Christmas trees and decorations for the coming Christmas celebration! 
Oh yeah~
I really like the decorations so much, especially the one in the middle atrium of 1Borneo.

"Christmas Charming Royale"

Cute right? I wish I could step onto the stage and hug the two bears. XDD

 

*** Skipped ***

Yesterday, >>>

 

After K-ing @ Amp Square Suria Sabah for about 3 hours, we went to New Mui Vui Cafe @ Hilltop.

 Before that, I managed to snatch some sunset photos. 

Sunset View @ Kota Kinabalu Waterfront

 

   

Again, we hunted for our favourite dumplings and Tuaran Mee at New Mui Vui Cafe. Lovin' the dumplings here so much... Yummy~

3 of us ate 20 steamed dumplings and a plate of Tuaran Mee for two persons. 

Was that our last station?  

DEFINITELY NOT!!! 

We went to Tanjung Aru Beach and searched for 

blended Avocado and steamed peanuts. 

Such an awesome drink~

It was the second time I went to the beach at night, but with different people. It was indeed another nice memory for me. Such a coincidence, I met my classmates there.

At the same beach in the morning (Sem1) and at night (Sem3), got difference, right? 

 Oh yea, before I forget to introduce her... The third girl in the photo below (from the left) is Victoria, a friend of my friend, from Kuching, currently having her one week holiday in KK.  

So, that's all about "yesterday"...  

"Tomorrow will be better" =)

Just a random post about Friends and Friendship

So many things can make us, human beings become frustrated. 

BFF… Such a nice song right?
Some people thinks that "Does BFF really exist???"

My understanding of the meaning of a friend >>> Someone that you are comfortable with, someone that makes you talk and listen a lot.

What I can say is time really changes a person’s behavior, including ours and our closest friends’.

What will you feel if you talk to your friend but he or she didn’t even answer you or give you any response? 

“Am I talking to the wall?” 
 (quoted from one of my lecturer)

Human beings are not stones, so they have feelings. 
What will other people think when he or she sees you talking to the wall? 
Very awkward right? 
It’s really annoying as so many questions will arise… 

"Did I do something wrong?"
"Am I not your friend?"

For me, I will think that "Am I transparent?” 
(Huh! I believe I'm not)

I have black hair, two eyes with black spectacles, a nose with 2 nostrils, a small red mouth and 2 ears. You really can't see me? Oh yea, before I forget, just to remind you that I have a pair of arms and legs too. 

Okay, not funny right? @@  

Some people think that silence is gold. Yea, it is.  
But, at least, at least you should give your friend some response BAHHH, no matter how "busy" you are. Not too hard right?


A friend... when you see him or her talking to other people in a different way or pretending to be someone that he or she doesn’t mean to be, you will definitely get mad. 
If your friend did so, it’s not wrong to point at him or her and say “Stop being hypocrite, okay? Please tear off your mask!” You’re actually awakening him or her to face the reality. 
However, if I face this situation, I do not have the guts to do so. Haha!

Back to the topic >>>

Anyway, I’m not complaining, just want to find an interesting topic to share with you guys, since it has been quite a long time since I posted my last blog entry. 

Human beings are really not simple, as what I’ve read recently from a blog post when I was doing a blog analysis for Discourse Analysis. 

Humans are really very complicated, some of them tend to be hypocrite, especially those who are in the age of 20+.

Yea, everyone has their own life, I know… But if you still see someone as friend, definitely you won’t exclude him or her in your life and of course, you won’t do something that hurts him or her. 

Whether you realize or not (you should realize), you have actually neglected your closest friend, if you only can see your “spouse-to-be” or other things that you think are more important. 

Don't ever neglect your friends or take your friends for granted, because… you’ll never know the importance of a friend. 

And of course, for me, my family is always my backbones. Without family, I’m nothing. Without our parents, I won’t be here writing so much and you won’t be here reading this long essay. 

So, no matter how your parents treat you, scold you, beat you or etc. in the past, try to open your arms and forgive them, because for every deed that they have done, there is always a hidden reason there. 

So, we should stop blaming and start to forgive and forget. 
I know it’s always easier to say than to do. 
But, if you never try, you will never know. 
If we don’t try, nothing will change at all. 
So, learn to appreciate everything around us. 
Do not come to your friends ONLY WHEN you need them. 

THEY ARE DEFINITELY NOT YOUR TOOLS.

Friendship, like phosphorus, shines brightest when all around is dark (Proverb) >>> a nice inspirational quote 

I’ve written too much already. 

~ THANK YOU FOR READING. ARIGATO GOZAIMASU ~